You know you're getting old when you start missing the things you used to hate.
Ok maybe hate is such as strong word. Dislike is more appropriate. Or as a matter of fact I didn't dislike it, I just didn't appreciate it before, not as much as I do now.
I miss IBB. I miss high school life. I mis my friends, I miss my group mates. I even miss the stressful projects we used to have back then - those are piece of cake compared to the papers I have to make now in the university. I miss going to school 8am and get home at around 4pm. I miss our lunch breaks, our 10 minutes break between each period. I MISS IBB.
University is cold, empty. I feel no conection with anyone. I come, listen to lectures and then leave. My group mates are rarely present so most of the time I sit alone, that's when I start missing my groupmates in IBB. I miss how lazy they were, I'd rather be with my lazy IBB groupmates than with my Über lazy groupmates in university, coz at least they came during classes. Even though they could be lazy they still cared about their GPA's they participated in class and we always had fun. my group mates now? I really don't want to critisize but I'm really close to leave them and find myself a new group, coz really I WANT A GROUP THAT I CAN DISCUSS WITH, A GROUP I CAN LEARN FROM, AND ALSO LAUGH WITH.
Hay how I miss IBB. Take me back to those 3 amazing years.
Our last days together..
Etiketter: Dailytale, school
So the weekend is over. Again and again.
I really hope that the weekend will be longer in my second life.
So what did I do?
I was out with my friend Veronica friday evening. It was cultural night in Copenhagen that evening, so there were alot of peeps in the city. It was ´nnice to see the town alive. Normally you'll mostly see party goers in the evening, but that night it was different. Of course some people were drinking but there were also alot of families bonding together, it was nice to see.
My friend and I spent most of our time in one of favorite cafés/restaurant! It was nice to sit down and just eat and talk and laugh and eat :P
yesterday (saturday) I was just home, did some little cleaning in my room but now it looks messy again. Sometimes I feel like I'm just waisting my time cleaning this room.
Today, I've been lazy, and that's just an understatement. I've been "sleeping" the whole day, I tried to do some revising but I kept on procrastinating, so now it's almost bed time so i'll just drop it completely. Good thing I don't have classes this coming week. :) No school in the evening, but I still have work so can't really sleep until I get head ache (that's what I always do in the weekend, I always get head ache in the morning because I sleep too long :p )
So you see, my weekend has been very relaxing. But rlaxation is not good for me, I just get more lazy :s
I envy those who go to school, I envy those who are not apprantice, ccz they are off the whole week, and they can sleep as much as they want. Haaay I really miss IBB -- don't get me wrong, I can't ask for a better job, I just wish there isn't work during school vacations :p
Etiketter: Dailytale
I Believe In You and Me
I Believe That we will be
In love eternally
Well as far as I can see
You Will Always be the one
For me (Oh yes, you will)
And I believe in dreams again
I believe that love will never end
And like the river finds the sea
I was lost, now I'm free
Cuz I believe In you and me
I'm totally stressed out about college, seriously!
I feel like I have no control about anything. A N Y T H I N G.
I used to be well prepared during my IBB days I did most of the homework and was present to more than 90% of the classes. I really used to have control of things, but now I am really losing grip of everything. I feel like if I don't do anything I will fall apart.
I can't afford falling apart. I can't loose everything now.
I know I have just started and everything is quite new so it's normal to be stressed. But..
Since I started uni, I've missed a couple of lectures already, and I will missing a couple more this coming week due to work.
Plus there is a mandatory paper that I have to pass together with my group in one and a half week but my group members doesn't seem to care much about it and I can't seem to make the program we need to use to work. Now ain't that enough reason why I can't help but being stressed?
My heart beats a bit faster than normal. I feel like crying, feel like bursting it all out but I can't. How I wish I could cry so that I'll get tired enough to fall asleep. But even in the middle of the night all of this is hunting me.
I knew that it wouldn't be easy when I decided to study and work as an apprentice at the same time. I know I chose this because this was what I really wanted. Now all I need to to is learn how to deal with it.
How I should start, I don't know. But I know that if I just hold on and pray, everything will fall into place, somehow.
I just hope it'll happen soon, coz I what to enjoy all of this too. I don't want to waste time on being worried and stressed.
Etiketter: changes, school, work
I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.
I want to go to Jollibee and think that it’s a four star restaurant.
I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.
I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.
I want to lie under a big oak tree and play doctors and nurses with my friends on a hot summer’s day.
I want to return to a time when life was simple; when all I knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, and it didn’t bother me, because I didn’t know what I didn’t know and I didn’t care.
All I knew was to be happy because I was blissfully unaware of all the things that should make me worry or upset.
I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good.
I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again.
I want to live simple again.
I don’t want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.
I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.
So … here’s my cheque book and my car-keys, my credit card bills and my mobile phone.
I am officially resigning from adulthood.
And if you want to discuss this further, you’ll have to catch me first, cause…
……”Tag! You’re it.”
Hope Ya’ll join me!
got this from: http://carla-oh.tumblr.com/page/5
yeah I wish everything was simple
Etiketter: Dailytale
After my graduation I think I got a well deserved vacation, though I wouldn't complain if it was longer. Now I'm back to business, I say good bye to IBB life and bid CBS (Copenhagen business School) welcome to my life. I am now a University girl.
The course I will be taking is called Graduate Certificate in Business Administration. It's a part time study, it's 8 hours per week, divided into two evenings. Beside that I have an apprenticeship in an accounting firm, which I will attend to during mornings-afternoon. 34-41 hours weekly shift at work plus 8 hours of lectures weekly, on top of that we get a ton of homework to read. From now on I will no longer have a social life (As if I ever had one lol). As you may see I will have a really tight schedule, it's going to be tough, I know, but I chose it so I am going to proceed with it til the very end. I just feel lucky coz this is a really big step closer to my dream career, as I will already working in my dream frim.
I started at CBS last Monday, we had two orientation days, it was both interesting and boring :p My classmates are very diversed, diversed in terms of age, can you believe that some of them are 38-39 years old? yes that's true, some of them are even bosses already. Well they took this course because they extend their knowledge :p People today really never stop studying, I don't know if it's just danes or if it happens all over the world. But studying even when your 50(above) here is very VERY normal.
Well I love the school, the building is very modern, and the library, it's not so big but I love the smell of books :P I was at the bookstore wednesday afternoon to get a book for my course, and I just loved how the new books were piled up , mind me if I sound weird. :p
CBS is supposed to be ranked as the 2nd best Business School in the world, right after Harvard, so I guess that's something to be proud about? Lol, well I can only start being proud when I finally learn to balance my time and don't fail any subjects.
Pictures from: www.cbs.dkEtiketter: Dailytale, school
Miracle. Have you ever witnessed one? Have you ever had an experience where you felt God’s presence?
My vacation to the Philippines was not really planned, usually we plan our trip 1 year ahead, but this year my mom allowed me to travel alone (I guess she realized that I am old and responsible enough to take care of myself). So I took the chance and booked my ticket more or less 1 month before my vacation. The plan was only to spend time with my grandmother and my boyfriend. I did not think something miraculous would happen.
August 13 was the day of my flight back to Denmark, and I did not expect that it would be the day where a part of me would be complete. My boyfriend fetched me from my grandmother’s house approx. 3 hours before my check in time. We headed to Mall of Asia to get some lunch, but before we reached the parking area I saw that I got one miscall and a message on my phone, all from my grandmother. The message said : “Jasmin, your dad is here, he wants to see you.” I thought my grandmother was joking, so I got my boyfriend to call her cause I simply could not take it seriously but I was also nervous. My boyfriend called her and yes it was indeed true. My real father came back after 20 years.
Very few people know the truth about my identity, only relatives and close friends. Here in Denmark none of my friends know the story of my life, whenever they ask me if I am half I just say no I am pure Filipino, and that will be end of story. I did not want to explain, I did not want to tell them that my father is from Jordan because I knew that most of them would ask where he is and I would not know what to answer. I did not want anyone to pity me because I have never known my father, I think my mother took really good care of me, so good that I never had to ask for a father. So basically the easy way out to their question is to lie and tell them that I am pure Pinoy.
The truth is that, my father is from Jordan, he left before I was born because he had to serve 2 years in military in his country but he never came back, not until 20 years. His reasons for not coming back? Due to his evil family, I would not elaborate more on that.
When he saw me I could really see happiness in him, he kept on weeping and holding my hands, right there I felt loved by a father for the first time.
What I felt? I do not know what I felt at that moment. It was an unusual feeling that I have never felt before and will probably never feel again.
At that moment I did not feel anger, wouldn’t you expect that? Because I would if I heard this story from someone else. I did not feel angry, not even at this very moment. I did not even ask him questions, questions that I wanted to ask him when I was younger, like why he left and did not come back. Even though I did not ask he still tried to explain.
My mom also does not blame him for anything, I guess she must really love him back then, thus she can forgive him easily.
I never really needed a dad, but I must admit that there were times I envied children with both a mother and a father. There have been nights (very few times, maybe 4-6 times in my entire life) where I cried while to God, I asked him to show me my dad in my dreams, so we could be together even if it’s only a dream. But God never granted my wish right away, now I know why.
I felt very lucky that day, up until today. I feel that God dedicated that day for me. It was the day where I became complete. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and asks myself if what happened really is true, if my father really came back for me, but when I wake up in the morning I have a proof, because he texts me “good morning hugs and kisses papa”. It feels weird but I am starting to get used to it now.
“There is a reason for everything” and “There is a right time for everything” I use those two lines very often but lately I realized that I never really understood those two lines until August 13 2009. Now I feel more secure about the future, because of those two lines and because I’ve finally felt God’s presence.
Oh, this is my 100th post so happy 100th post dear blog :)
Etiketter: changes, Dailytale, Family, future
